I've had occasional depression all my life, due to low self-esteem. I could deal with it very well until about two months ago when it suddenly became intolerable. In May, I left an emotionally abusive relationship that left me mentally damaged, but had friends who would make sure it was okay and would offer (I do) go out with them often. Then, two months ago I had a couple of bad days, when my two friends were arguing. They were and we were fine, but I think something happened to scare me because I started getting depressed again. I really only have three people I consider close friends, and two of them have lately been busy or have something to do. That almost never calls or texts, and rarely makes the offer to hang out with him I forget, fills, or simply does not appear. One is simply too busy with school, and I do not accept blame when it gets bad enough to the point where you ask for help and no one seems to notice. That leaves the last person to deal with my depression that is not fair to either of us. I'm not the type of person to drag everyone through my bad days. In fact, rarely will I tell someone I'm having one unless I think they could help and that's my last option. However, when I get seriously depressed I think things are much worse than they are, as I believe my friend is leaving me out later than usual because he actually cares. About two weeks ago I started having really bad anxiety, to the point where I have random break downs. I've been paying attention and have noticed a few things that either signal an attack or something you use to feed him (unintentionally). Most of them have to do with the fear of being alone again like I was in my last relationship. As I sniff snuff and remember how I used to play with my friend who smokes a pipe, or I'll be on facebook and notice (again) that the two have been out of range, or has gone. I've done a lot of research books myself, so I'm looking for more serious answers like you've been through something similar or is a real doctor and know what you're talking about. Thanks in advance. I am willing to try counseling or therapy if that's what it takes. Only I have no idea where to turn or how. I really do not want to see a prescription because you do not believe in just mask the symptoms. Maybe for a little while if you really have to, but I was really doing good improvements in my self until all this happened. I would also minimize the impact and involvement of my parents simply because we do not want to have to worry. I have a nineteen true. Please give me answers.
Tomorrow I am going to a Christmas party my boyfriend's family is throwing. 50+ people are going, and I won't know any except my boyfriend (I only know his mom; she isn't going). I REALLY don't want to have a panic attack in the middle of the party and I REALLY don't want to make myself look like an idiot in front of his family. Does anyone know how I can calm myself? (without meds)
I have 19 years and a boy. What I have constantly told my mother, the child and youth worker and counselor at my old high school is that you may be suffering from a genetic disorder that causes anxiety. They insisted that I take medication because it was the only way he could be cured. However, I was very resistant to the idea, and went with her for a while because my anxiety was so bad and I could not say no. I took paxil for a month and realized that I was more anxious than it was originally. I went to my doctor and told him about it, then told him I did not want to try anymore drugs. My body is not a test tube and I will experiment with it. The counselor I was seeing told me it was my attitude towards medication that probably did not work. Okay, so the conclusion I have reached is that medication is just BS and not really do anything for you. If my attitude caused not work so my attitude to not take medication should my anxiety better. In addition, I recently learned in a psychology class that genetics determines not disorders, but the environments influence them. Well, I live with a family that is hardly aware that I exist and do nothing but fight and shout. If they are not doing it, they are isolating. My mom told me it was genetics just to dodge the fact that she helped cause. If it is genetic, then she helped cause anyway. Also, I talked to the counselor, totaled ***** fest little when I said that I will not go on medication and told me his son was calling dysfunctional because he took the medication. It's idiots like this that are the reason why my anxiety is so bad in the first place. Call me stubborn, but I like challenges in life, and it seems that more and more symptoms of depression and anxiety is much more difficult without the use of drugs. The challenge is even greater considering my environment, I have to stop being afraid of honest. If I had a secure job and I were leaving, I just left. I do not know, though. The other problem is that many people I see are just rude to me, but they say that I like and care about me. I guess finding good friends is the biggest challenge. Anyway, I just want to hear the opinion of others, because I was told that if I'm on medication, it is impossible for me to overcome this. I've made more progress in two years I would have with the medication, though.
I suffer from anxiety and depression, and it's making my life terrible. I am 23 and I'm not living a life at all! I go gym most days, I then come home and do nothing but sit on my computer for the rest of the night. I haven't socialised with friends for a long time, so my social life is pretty much non existent at the moment. On top of this, I struggle to meet girls because of my lack of social life. I am really struggling to find work at the moment, as there really is nothing about. I went online earlier to apply for a a customer service/call centre job and there were nearly 200 applications for the same position. I am getting depressed and am finding it impossible to keep my mental state in one piece! I'm losing motivation and I really need money. The only money I have, is the money that I receive from the Job Centre, so I have nothing apart from that. I also live in a small village and really desperately want out of the village so bad. I would love to move away and find my own place, preferably a flat share with someone. I don't drive either, but I am trying to save up for some lessons, but even if I pass, I still have to worry about the money for the car and insurance on it. Also, I never went to University and would love to go, but the problem is, I have to pay for an access course at my local college (U.K college, not U.S). Everything is getting on top of me and I'm desperate for some advice, please?
I have 17 years and I have very severe depression . I saw a therapist and was of no help at all. I was very open and honest , but I did not feel the slightest improvement after left out . Also I have horrible anxiety and insomnia caused frequent headaches . My only hope of getting help is that I prescribed an anti-anxiety medication to deal with my anxiety . I posted on this site before with the same question after you have tried everything, but the therapy , but now I feel like I 've tried everything and I can not regain the enthusiasm I had as a child . I am so insensitive and removed all the time , the only joy I ever feel is when sunbathing preteen memories of happiness . I do not want to keep feeling disappointed in the very people whom I loved and admired as a child . I hate everyone and I did not used to be like . I do not understand how a warm, loving can become so bitter and misanthropic in a matter of a few years . I have no idea how to help myself , and my only hope is in the opportunity that has been prescribed Zoloft or Konoplin or something for my anxiety . I do not know what to do with myself .
here it is, I'll hav emy period this week and I feel the symptoms : cramps , tender breasts nipples NAD , but especially depression ... I'm so depressed that not even funny , even as I write this I'm on the verge of tears . I have exams tomorrow and I concentrate I can ... I feel so sad , I know it's because of my pms but you know ... I just wnat to go to my room and cry till i die .... jsut any suggestions on what to do ?
Like not break-up depression, or death related depression, like clinical major depression. Cuz my grandmother commited suicide and my aunt tried to commit suicide and my mom seems depressed...often, but I dont know. I feel like I cycle between depression and insanity and I freak out and think about death and suicide a lot. I usually manage to tell myself to chill (hence the name chill man, its kind of a message to myself and to everyone else. Chillness is good) and calm down before I do anything stupid...but I hear people say they "Conquered depression." and that just doesnt make sense to me. How do you conquer something that is a part of you...I mean its a way of thinking, I might be able to hide behind a charade of humor and idiocy at school or with girls, but I'm there always. How am I supposed to change who I am? I might as well try to change my race or the color of my eyes.
I have apathy and am trying to work on it and get rid of it , I can not really be much of a really positive person , if I do not care , and I do not know how to overcome it . Honestly I do not get why I have this this has been going on for some time now I can not remember when it started all I know is that I felt this way all year last year . There were times when I was a little happy , but that's it . I heard that apathy and not a lot of emotional activity is a sign of depression . However , I have ADHD - inattentive type so idk if it has something to do with that I do not know I have to admit that even might have to do with how I grew up, my parents are Jehovah's Witnesses , and I was and still am today not a religious person , so throughout my teenage years I was always in my room and not go anywhere not to mention I'm gay , and so do not think it helped So this year I'm going to go to school this spring to Los Angeles and this year I plan to fix mentally and emotionally with my self-esteem , to address my symptoms of ADD , self-confidence and my social skills .
I have major depressive disorder ... He had been on Celexa that killed my sex drive and then Cymbalta which made me gain 15 pounds ... I know my depression is real and terrible , but I do not want to take medicine more ... I am willing to change my diet and exercise every day, but if anyone has any other ideas ( what to eat , how much exercise ) I'm willing to take all suggestions ...
We live in his parents place since our marriage . A year ago his mother died. Since I was in a depression that never recovered . He almost never drank , but now I can not live without emptying a bottle a day and have become very quiet . He says he still loves me and me too. I want to help . How I can help my husband overcome his depression ?
Hello, my name is Andrew. I am a 16 year old student from high school and I am completely useless at this point. I have been suffering from depression for a long time. Honestly, I can not really remember when it started. All I know is that he became clinically depressed 1 year and 3 months of a break with my girlfriend. We were very close, and as my home life sucked and I needed love, for starters, when she was only left me completely earth shattering for me. I did not know what to do with myself. I got really bad in school and did not want to do anything ever. Every f * cking days I was miserable. It had all the symptoms of major depression all I could think. And wasn t for months until I started to see a psychologist. I found that the therapy did not help at all, but refused medication for a long time. Finally starting this school year I tried medication, I was on a low dose for 5 weeks and my parents had trouble getting dates, so I was not seeing my therapist very often. On the anniversary of my rest until I had my first panic attack. But I realized I was on the same day of the break with the previous year until a few days later. I had been manic yesterday for the first time and I did not understand at first why I was so tall and good that I do not like, they just want to blow their brains out that night. The next day I woke up I felt weird and then spent the panic attack. I still think about the girl every day if I want to or not, but I think my problem is not getting over it. The thing is that I am not bed ridden as it used to be, but still I have a chronic deppression every day. And although it can not hurt me as bad as I did, I feel even more desperate, as I stood only won away. I see a therapist because I can not take any medication (not helped by the way) My parents sure are not paying more and this is the situation I find myself in. I try to keep a positive attitude, read, try relax, play my guitar, but I still feel bad almost every day and I just want it to end. There are still some days when I'm just a complete disaster, but arent as much, but the amount remains the same. I have had many thoughts of suicide I'm f'ing tired of it. My dad is the one that is totally foreign to him dliving is a nightmare every day, but needy though my mom is loving and caring, she's the beings and deppressed Me Down. I'm in a hole and I stayed. I have read that thats less intense depression can last four years chrinic! I'm not waiting that long. I dont even know if I'm still mostly depressed or not. This is making me very angry and I f'ing tired of it. Nothign help, and I have no support. Please help!